8/3/2026
Have you ever felt like a ghost? I feel like one, drifting through this life, watching everything happen, all the while completely invisible. I tried everything I could to make my mark upon the world. I tried everything to make people like me. God, I feel like a dog performing tricks just in the hope of getting a treat. But none of that matters. They all see something wrong with me. I wish they would tell me what's wrong with me, I'd fix it in a heartbeat. They are cruel and want to keep me beneath them, so that they don't need to accept me.
8/7/2026
I think my issue is that I always want what I cannot have. When I was a child, I wanted something fantastical, I wanted pure magic. As I grew older, I wanted people to like me, I wanted happiness, something that seems unattainable. Nothing I ever wanted has ever worked out. Not even having a best friend, someone I can trust entirely with all my issues. How stupid I feel sometimes, with all my dreams of love and finding "the one", knowing that will never happen for me.